Welcome to my world, you sexy human being.

This website is a genuine outlet for allowing you to get to know the real me, not a fake presentation to sell you on liking me for being something I'm not.

I believe in living my one short life to its fullest, so I'm pursuing a few big things with my life and am also letting it all hang out.

If you feel a genuine spark of connection with me and feel that we are compatible, then feel free to reach out & connect with me further.

Below are some of the core chunks of who I uniquely am. You can see My Blog for a lot more.

Self-Discovery I'm really big into personal development of all sorts...always have been. But, one of my biggest pursuits is my own deep self-discovery. Since I was young, I've always been an obsessive introspecter. Now, a couple decades later, with an expertise of human psychology under my belt, I'm banging on all cylinders.

Self-Discovery, including one's core desires, beliefs, identity, emotions, habits, subconscious, etc is one of the most important aspects of human life to me. So I'm a freak in that regard, but it gives me an insanely deep sense of self for precisely who & what I am and a capability to pursue a highly customized life that I feel totally connected to & lights me up. It's pure me.

Renaissance Man I've always been a deep thinker with an insatiable curiosity for seeing behind the scenes of life. So it's no surprise that I would obsessively pursue several different fields of thought & expertise throughout my life. I've always had an intelligent mind that could understand things on a deeper level than interests most all people. I've always valued intelligence & wisdom, so I've purposely sought to develop these to extremes, along with a wide array of practical skills.

If there's a pattern to these intellectual pursuits of mine, then it'd be that my interests generally revolve around the themes of human nature & human achievement, and that I possess a deeply grooved drive to consistently be figuring things out of all types. Beyond intellectual pursuits, I'm always looking to add new skills & capabilities to my repertoire so that I can achieve more & experience more great things within the journey of life.

Human Nature I have an obsession with human nature. So much so that I became a psychologist to pursue it. My expertise is not so much with psychiatry or neuroscience, but rather with depth psychology in understanding the subconscious mechanics of motivation & meaning within the human mind. I intelligently skipped college so I don't have a piece of paper, but I have obsessively built the equivalent and beyond in technical expertise.

I'm always psychoanalyzing every little macro & micro nuance of human behavior & social interactions. It is like an automatic 24/7 thing I've done for many years. I also love to dig into my own psychology and play with & hack it. After studying, observing, & theorizing for a long time, I've come to believe in the school of thought known as "psychological hedonism" (not to be confused with my hedonistic identity) aka pain/pleasure. So you can often find me philosophizing & hacking away at models & mechanics of core human nature, like here & here.

Elite Hedonism I am a hedonist. It's an identity & way of living that comes natural to me. The concept I call elite hedonism is about architecting your life & exploiting your most potent personal desires with precision for maximal pleasure/happiness. So I consistently use professional grade psychology, deep self-discovery, & strategic living, all oriented towards creating more peak experiences in life. I'm largely into social hedonism and enjoy getting pleasure out of human connection & social experiences. Most all people do, but I'm just ultra strategic & precise about it.

Of course, if you want to truly maximize anything in life, including your own pleasure/happiness, then you have to leave behind traditional norms, get outside the box, and have the courage to take alternative paths. I thought it was stupid to limit my happiness in life, just to fit in & please people who judge. So I ultimately decided to embrace my raw human nature, open up the lid on all of my subconscious desires, and not be afraid to pursue them in my life. You can read a bit more about my big transformation from humanitarian to hedonist here & here. I can tell you with 100% certainty that embracing this identity & path is the best thing I've ever done for my happiness.

Deep Connection IMHO...human connection is the #1 pillar of human happiness. And I pretty much only care about sharing deep connection with people. Much of my life is dedicated towards this through high caliber social experiences & personal relationships. I got physically sick of the experience of small talk & casual acquaintances in my life, so I've permanently eradicated most all of that from my life. I now maintain a tight inner circle for an ultra pure source of human connection. I only really want experiences of emotional depth with my kind of peeps.

I like going ultra deep & ultra personal with people, whether intellectual or emotional, platonic or sexual (girls only, sorry), in order to create a peak experience of emotional connection that leaves us very happy & thoroughly pleasured. I don't really care if I've just met you or you are a lifelong friend, this experience of deep connection is my consistent objective. It helps to be very open. It helps to be emotionally developed. It helps to be likeminded. But, however it happens, deep human connection always pleasurable.

The Dark Side Everybody has a dark side to their inner self. But, I like to bring mine to the surface, explore it, and exploit it for greater happiness. My dark side isn't very sadistic, more emotionally masochistic & socially rebellious, if you were to stereotype it. Basically, human life isn't all about positivity, lollipops, & unicorns to me. Life can be pleasurably naughty, painful, & dark. Like crying out of emotional pain in the comforting arms of someone you love. Experiences like these would not feel as good without the contrast of "negative" emotion intertwined within them.

Do you like sunshine? I like rain. Do you like to be hugged? I like to be spanked. Do you like pop music? I like female metal singers. Do you like tennis? I like BDSM. Do you like compliments? I like narratophilia (obscene talk). Do you like romantic comedies? I like gothic vampires. Do you like to smile? I like to cry. ...Now, of course, I equally enjoy all of that other traditionally positive & bright stuff too. But, I'm also able to feel a connection with many darker sentiments of life that are traditionally considered "negative" by some.

Alt Sexuality Plain vanilla sexuality just doesn't do it for me. There's so much more happiness & pleasure to be had in this short human life beyond restrictive mainstream sexuality. So pull out your kinks, fetishes, fantasies, taboos, alternative relationship structures, & your inner nympho cause that's the sandbox I consistently play in. While many people were raised to be puritanical and shun or hide from such sources of human connection & happiness, I openly believe in being as unapologetically happy as I can be while remaining healthy.

I truly truly truly love women. Sexual connection with you cool chicks is the very peak of life for me. Always will be. I never want to limit that and I truly believe in alternative relationships. I don't believe in possessing another person I love or sleep with. I have a more open perspective of deep friendship + sexual connection. My philosophy basically comes down to free love & more love in life....Connect with me over on FetLife.

Professional Kid I'm a kid at heart. I've always remained very connected to my inner child. I loved being a kid when I was younger and still love spontaneously acting like a kid in my everyday life. I use the term "professional kid" because I'm going to be and act as a kid for my entire adult life. It is just a core part of my identity & personality. I could conquer the adult world and I'd still never fully grow up. That's just happiness to me.

Wanna go build a fort? Wanna play house? Wanna play doctor? Wanna play hide and seek? Wanna trade sports cards? Wanna go kiss girls and run? Wanna go sneak around and spy on grownups? Wanna play cops and robbers? Wanna tickle me until I cry? Wanna play with legos and action figures? Wanna meet my stuffed animals? Wanna type 5318008 on calculators? I do. Let's be kids again. Let's ageplay.

Self-Expression I've really grown to love creatively expressing myself and pouring my heart & soul out to the world. Having the courage to just openly be myself and not wearing a social mask to try to trick you into liking me for being something I'm not is what I believe in. The authenticity of connecting with others in such a genuine & personal way is very fulfilling. Of course, by doing so, you risk greater personal rejection from the world. But, you get over that, and then start viewing it as a great way for quickly prequalifying people who you would or wouldn't want in your life.

Creative self-expression is such a strong pillar for happiness. It is just so much fun to connect with people who enjoy you for expressing what's inside of you. Whether it is publishing the intimate details of my mind, letting out my eccentricities in the presence of others, or putting my personality into projects of mine, it always feels great. I love music and would one day like to be able to sing & perform for you.

Libertarian I have a strong life philosophy of individual liberty, politically & socially. While other people may believe in controlling people and prescribing life choices, like this, I believe in personal freedom. This philosophy goes for government, business, & personal life. There are practical problems that make this hard to always implement in the real world. However, it is the ideal that I ultimately believe in.

This also means supporting the freedom of others to engage in activity or expression that I wouldn't enjoy or ever do myself, even things that make me sick to my stomach. But, I ultimately believe in every single human being having the right to do whatever they want with their life, as long as they don't violate other's bodies, other's property, & certain legal agreements, without express consent. For I desire the same respect of my own freedom.

Pro Entrepreneur I'm an entrepreneur. Always have been, since my teens. Difference between then and now is that I'm a pro. Years ago, I strategically skipped college and jumped straight into business. I did multiple self-employed ventures early on, which are boring & pitiful to me now. But, now I'm seriously working to build scalable enterprises and create serious wealth for myself & others.

I not only do serious business, I've seriously studied the in-depth technicals of business, including corporate, entrepreneurial, & financial. But my most notable expertise is in marketing. So I'm all armored up with the equivalent of a few MBAs and real world experience.

My bread & butter is currently in my marketing company. However, I'm budding as a capitalist and am planning on establishing a private equity firm in the future. I also build other cool projects from time to time, like the personal development app HappyBits.

My Interests I have many personal interests and life is way too short for me to fully indulge in them all. Here's a partial list of some of my favorites...

Also, you can see a summary of my interests in this note.

Now, you know why I'm pursuing serious financial wealth. So that I can live a life of having the resources & time leverage to fully immerse myself into more of my interests.

My Goals I've already achieved a lot of great stuff, especially the infrastructure of my own personal development. Here are some of the key goals I'm committed to pursuing in my life now & throughout the future...

· Serious Wealth: I wish I desired a simple life, because then I wouldn't need much to fulfill it. However, I aspire to a big, bold, highly customized life of many interesting pursuits. This takes ample financial resources to accomplish, so I will continue working to generate serious wealth for myself & others.

· Private Equity: I have a unique technical capability for strategically optimizing business enterprises and am developing a formal platform for doing so. I plan to establish a lower middle market buyout firm, generate some serious wealth here, and work our way up to bigger deals. I need the support of a professional dealmaking team to hit this one out of the park with.

· Bodybuilding: Ever since I was a little kid, I always deeply identified with having the physique of a bodybuilder. I've done bodybuilding on & off while growing up. I want to finish what I started and finally build & chisel what I refer to as my "stacked physique".

· Create Music: I've grown to love love love music and am consistently feeling a deep desire to create & express myself through music. So I might seriously get into electronic music composition & DJing and/or singing/songwriting & playing instruments.

· Become Russian: I'm a certified Russophile. It's weird, I've never been to Russia, or knew any Russians growing up, but I feel a deep connection to Russia. It feels like a home away from home to me. So I'm learning Russian language, studying Russian culture, and will someday start likely living there on & off. Россия, я тебя люблю!

· Biology/Medicine: I've become fascinated with human biology for two reasons. First, it is what human life physically is and it is amazing how machine like our biology is on a micro level. Second, human aging & biological death is an engineering problem that could be solved medically/technologically. Truly amazing breakthroughs are coming in this field that will reshape the human condition, so I want to gain the expertise and have the resources to directly participate in it.

· Friends & Girlfriends: I'm always out for finding lasting friendships of depth. I am especially looking to find some really special girls to create whirlwind intimate relationships with because, like I said, sexual connection is the peak experience of happiness in this life for me. If we can share a really fun & deep connection together for a portion of our lives and I can help you live the life you ultimately want as well, then I'm interested.

· Group Friendship: I really want to create a group friendship experience in my personal life. Having awesome individual friendships is always great, but I think the experience could be taken to a whole new level by having a fun group unit of close likeminded friends. Even living together with a group of super close friends would be an awesome experience that I'm up for.

· Internet Community: I really enjoy expressing myself openly and would like to use social media to create a community of people to connect with in this way. I'd like to build a likeminded following doing live video based on my interests & self-expression.

· Lifestyle Community: Ultimately, going beyond an internet community, I'd like to create a real world lifestyle community of my type of peeps who vibe with me the most. I want to have real world community events & experiences together for super fun outlets of connection, growth, & self-expression.

· Media Brand: I want to create a successful media brand that gets real publicity, creatively shakes up people's minds, and acts as another awesome outlet for my creative self-expression. I need to succeed with some of my other goals, especially financial, before this pursuit becomes more predictably viable.

Can we have a real impact on each other's lives and help each other get what we truly want out of life? I'd be open to it.

My Personality The best way to get a feel for my personality is to spend meaningful time with me in-person across multiple scenarios & environments. However, to help you get some better feel for my personality right now, I'll try to describe it. Here's a few different flavors you'll consistently experience with my personality...

· Intellectual/Philosopher: I must understand & analyze everything to the nth degree.

· Rebel/Raunchy: I like to be naughty, do what I please, & strut my potty mouth. What can I say, I was born a narratophile.

· Power/Commanding: I try to be empathetic most always, but sometimes I take charge & steamroll to move things forward.

· Eccentric/Retard: Always acting normal & well put-together is for liars. Just spaz out & be weird at least once a day.

· Little Kid/Submissive: I like giving up control and being under the power of someone I like/trust. I especially like being a kid & ageplaying.

· Love/Beauty: I often revel in the enchanting beauty & intimacy of many scenarios of life. Less outwardly expressed, but it's there.

How I Connect If you'd like to connect further with me, let me offer some tips for doing so...

For a personal friendship, check your depth & likemindedness with mine. Are you my type of person & will you go emotionally deep with me over time? I hope so. FYI, here's a few types of interaction that generally work well with me (link).

For a business relationship, I'm already getting pitched a lot of dead wood, so check how much truly solid value you're bringing to the table. Read through my goals, I'm not looking to be another sale/account/downline/sucker of a commonplace offer. Just be your genuine self and be open & real with me. Lead with a strong contribution of value upfront.

It's best not to try to build a genuine relationship with me via text, because I won't likely feel a real long-term connection with you through that medium only. We can start out that way, and certainly do add me on Facebook or Twitter. But then we will want to move to connecting via phone or video chats, or meeting in real life, if we like each other.